I'm slipping.
And they say it's a slippery slope.
You see, way back when, I'd debate whether or not to take an injection before going to sleep. A dangerous question if answered wrong. Most times I took the shot. A few times, I didn't. Oh well, I wake up a little thirsty, right. And 20 years down the road loss of vision. ugh.
Tonight, I sit here really comfortable-like and the beeping of my pump reminds me that my reservoir is low and has been for hours. The dashes an indication that I'm scraping the bottom.
I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of site changes and insulin vials, of beeping machines attached to my body, of counting carbs and of this disease.
But it's the unknown complications and battles that the future holds that dictate the necessity of dragging my butt off this couch, digging out a reservoir and a site, finding my blue inserter device and getting it done.
Isn't that what it's all about, every day--Getting it done?
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Getting it done can be a real drag sometimes. I think that's why we all blog here...to help each other out.
It happens to all of us. I could be checking my glucose and going to bed right now, but instead I'm reading blogs, and probably will be into the wee hours. Hope I can remember to check before I fall asleep.
Also, not getting it done generally sucks sometimes. So I guess we just push forward...
Yes mel, it is all about "Getting it done".
The trouble is when "Getting it done" takes so much motivation and energy, and we sometimes feel our "energy tank" is all tanked out!
But, we do what we gotta do! That is what makes us so strong. We find that energy when there is none to be found. We so often have to "kick it up a notch". And we do. And that in itself is amazing.
We use our blogs to vent a little bit - and it's so therapeutic, because we get it. I know what it takes to do that site change, or fill a reservoir, or whatever. It is time that you don't want to spend dedicated to diabetes.
But we are strong. And you are too.
I was just thinking about this this morning as i was dragging myself out of bed at 6:30AM to hit the gym. There is so much effort required to manage this condition. But just like your post said, what's the alternative? Going blind? Losing limbs? Makes that 5 mile run seem like a small price to pay for whateverpeace of mind it can offer.
getting it done has become a habit by now for me. Sometimes though, even staying in the habit is tiring!
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